The Call

Today we got "the call". I knew it was "the call" because I had just been emailing home study dates with our caseworker and knew that she wouldn't be calling unless it was important since we had just been emailing.

She let us know that we had been selected by a family and they are having a baby girl on September 28. I was at work when I got the call and tried to conference in Joel. I did a miserable job of trying to connect our phones and then our caseworker gave it a shot with success. I was so glad that Joel and I were able to hear the information simultaneously - unlike last time.

The situation seems positive and we are going to learn more and meet mom and dad. I keep vacilating between excitement and feeling numb. I think I'm a little bit overwhelmed and I'm worried to get too excited. I think it's so much to take in.

I'm a bit of a superstitious person so here are some of the things that I find to be interesting:

• I've negletcted wearing my adoption juju bracelet this week and finally remembered to wear it today. I even made that comment to my co-worker who gave it to me that I finally have it on. In addition, I planned on working a half day and got the call from our caseworker an hour before it was time for me to leave.


• Joel's sister is in town from Michigan and she and Joel's mom were planning to meet him for lunch. They heard the exciting news and Carol, his sister, shared that she had just made a comment that it would be great if we got "the call" while she was out. Joel's mom responded with, "wouldn't that be something". Carol then said a little prayer that if God wanted things to work that way she wouldn't be disappointed.


• My mom was also teaching school and had the word "newborn". She used it in a sentence: "I'm going to be the grandma to a newborn".


• Finally, my sister is going to be out here when baby is due.

I guess we're all trying to will this little bambino into our lives the best that we can through prayer, juju and whatever other means we can think of at our disposal. It's such a nerve wracking place to find myself again. I'm excited but sort of can't believe that it's real. I felt some serious emotions welling up when I called my sister but had to suppress them because I didn't want to start bawling at work. Now I think I'm just in shock. I'm sure it will all sink in over the weekend. It's hard to believe that I might not be waiting for bambino for much longer.